expectations

tricky, very tricky... expectations can bring out the best in u or deteriorate u . in the second case u not only disappoint the ones who expect but also urself. n that hurts badly. puts u into some kinda phase which cant be explained. u know u have to do better, but suddenly ur mind is blocked. u only think of what others wud think of ur work where u shud be thinking abt what u feel abt ur work. in correct conditions u shud feel happy, but not satisfied. satisfaction ends the passion. if u make a painting that seems perfect to a layman, u shud know what it lacks. never be satisfied with ur work, always keep puttin in passion and creativity and it will only improve. most important is to be what u r with urself and let ppl go take a hike. care a damn, give ur work the best u can at that time.
good work leads to higher expectations for the next asgnt. if u cant meet those, u r labeled to have degraded. feel bad abt it. sob. yell. go nuts. lock urself in ur room. dont talk to ppl. bunk college. but rasie again. dont live in the joy of the past, make the best of the present, take over ur past achievements and create new standards and always grow higher. be ur own competitor. in any case lost or won, u know who is to be blamed or praised.
be independent. take suggessions from experienced ppll but ultimately do what ur heart wants to.

5 is my score!

After college, me nmohini decided to go to venus to buy some art material. So we drifted to abc on my nova. obviously, there was no shade n place to park! so my dear nova had to stand in the sun in a lane across. nevermind. me n mohini shopped paints, canvas, i needed 3d outliners for my glow signs project...our bill came down to Rs. 1241...!!!!! out of that, Rs. 900 was just my canvases! yeh..but canvas is something i never regret spending on...may it be canvas boards or even canvas shoes! venus gave us a huge bag enuf to fit in the 16x 20 canvas, other pieces were smaller. i also got a folding pallete for water colours, its cool n compact, dulange had suggested me to use it. but we dint find the 'hog hair' brushes we wanted for acrylics. So we boarded the huge venus bag on the bike in the front and off to 'trimurti', not to forget the ICICI ATM stop.!

now trimurti's is a still worse place to find a parking. So i left the bike in row of some bikes along the road, there wasnt a white line of demarkation anywhere, so i wasnt concerned! we shopped peacefully there, bought papers for mandar's project, hand made paper pads n got the brushes finally! this time the total went to Rs.354. the venus bag had much space to accomodate new art material n now it looked fatter! the shopkeeper even made fun of us saying- we shud've got a pram instead.!!! lol...!! while we laughed our way out of the shop, i find my bike is GONE!!!
it was TOED!! perfect! like my bike was screaming out-" plz take me away", when the rest of the bikes, more inapprropriately parked than mine, were right there!

I had already spent enough for the day. N this was the '5th ,FIFTH' time that my bike was toed, twice in mumbai at andheri, then 3rd time at ccd, law college road, 4th at j.m. road and now ABC! gr8! If anyone's bike is ever toed in pune, i know all the probable places to find it! We found out the nearest RTO parking ground and got my bike back at a good Rs. 350! ok, thats it, my pocket was empty, i wasnt even left with any change! coz i dint have the PUC in my bike so i was fined for that too!
mohini jokingly said, 'bhagwat bai, aj kai khara nahi!' True, having almost banged into 2 bikes on the way to abc and the whole shopping and toeing thing, it was fair to say that! on the way back home i found a PUC van. i jerked the bike to stop there! got the PUC done and it proudly lies in the bike from now on! no more toeing, plz suju. be more careful while parking yaar!

thnx to orkut!

ruddhi, a friend from school got in touch a month ago on orkut. n 2day we had a chat after like 3 yrs! and in no time we were discussing her love tale..how fast is that! Good frnz of the past just hit it no matter for how long they have been away. So cool was the chat..purani yaadien taza ho gayi!
ruddhi: maza weight 54
zalay
aadhi 48 hota
11th madhye
sujata: photo madhe addhi sarkhich wattes
oh wait a minute..
when was the last time we met?!
ruddhi: nahi aadhi peksha wadhli aahe
kes pan jara waadhlet
gokhle
armaan
sujata: oh god no!
ruddhi: no
stahaye
sujata: kay tp kelela apan!
ruddhi: mehendi compettion
sujata: huh?
ruddhi: aapan bhetlo hoto
tevha
tula mahit aahe shaan theatre paadla
sujata: ya
but sun city hai na
ruddhi: 30 rs madhye movie pahila aapan
sujata: yeh
ruddhi: brek madhye tickets kadhli hoti
heheheh
sujata: good old days
ruddhi: remember chendu?
sujata: hehe
ruddhi: Rinni
sujata: ya
dhamal hoti na!
ruddhi: ho
U used to get bugged off with the three of them very often
chendu was all time victim
sujata: yeh...she was a nut case!
ruddhi: poor her
she used to trouble u a lot
sujata: hope she does well in life!
what can i say!
ruddhi: and u used to get pisssssssssssed offffffff wid her
hmmm
sujata: heh
ruddhi: and do u remember we were searching for chendu's mum after movie
and she had fallen asleep somewhere
sujata: haha
yeh i do!

the best healer

m back from manavli..me n mohini had left on wednesday post noon for mumbai. then mohini, me, sidd, aai, baba, jayu n her parents made a quick plan to go to manavli..yay...i cud take a break from city life. i always long for such times, that bring me closer to nature and days go by like minutes in its company. this time we got to watch macpies, sun birds , barbets...baba was our guide! he truely loves and admires nature in every form...no wonder i feel the same. The trip was indeed refreshing. I returned with new ideas for my flash presentation and website asgnt. It seems like i take a rebirth everytime i travel..!
the best part was that baba discussed a very interesting project with me. he called it 'developing a garden that is also a birdwatching spot'. i.e. we study the habitats of trees, plants and birds and bring it together to develop a garden as per our wish. its not only beautiful but also delightful. baba has been building houses for more than a decade now..n he wishes to extend it to designing multi-functional gardens for his creations! what an over whelming thought that is! i was instantly excited to join him. m looking forward to more n more feild trips and making research reports and discuss them with baba. i always thot i shud've become an engineer or an architect so that i cud work with my 'most admired idol' but now i have a chance to work with him being an artist! m glad... too glad.

sugarcane season!

Each day of summer in pune is incomplete without atleast one glass of sugarcane juice! Its as cheap as 3/- per half glass n 5/- per full glass, and theres a 'rasavanti gruha' at a distance of every 20-25 footsteps! So i have a glass at swargate and if m too tired or i decide to stick around n sketch i have another glass on my way home.. in the evening, after a walk for abt 50 mins, i have yet another glass....its so heavenish...!!!1
I was reaaly excited about the acrylic painting i started at college 2day..on 12x 16 inch canvas !!! Its a still life- a beer bottle, an orange n a custard apple. Vivek sir gave a demo first, that was enuf of a kick to me! I started off with the wash at at 9.30 in the morn...n continued till 5 in the eve! Yogesh, ratnesh, pranav n isaac were the spectators..! It was fun...! Every one wud give their views on the painting as i was proceeding. i did call sir a few times..he was very co-operative! Vivek's just getin btr! It was only me n yogesh in the end...we talked n talked..n discovered we stay close, so i got a lift back home! As usual i had sugarcane juice at a place near by and walked home with the painting proudly dangling in my bag!

water colours

The outdoor water colour painting was an amazing time i had 2day!!! We gathered in college at 8 and walked a lil ahead to make the painting. there were huts and trees there..mostly dried up coz of the summer. we settled wherever we cud on the stones, soil..some found benches and some just got their bikes over! I found a spot too and began sketching. Then as i coloured it in yellows n browns, dulange sir came over..he liked my work, i was happy! I had fun..i felt confident in handling water colours, m gettin better at understanding its nature.
After the exam, sir appreciated my work and also mentioned that he liked me not throwing tantrums at the outdoor, coz it was all dusty and messy and ppl were complaining while i was sittin on a stone and balancing the pallete and water container around me and totally into my painting ,dint care how dirty my jeans were gettin!
Later there was a photo shoot in college..with the verve and cresendo trophies! All the students frm our class gathered and were holding the trophies they werent even aware our college had won! That really pissed me. C'mon we were the ones out there and they were holding our trophies, even the faculties were there , yes, the ppl who complained we dint attend lectures and went out for competitions! What a bloody mentality- they only wanted to appear in the photographs even if they did nothing! Thats what it is after all..if you r good ppl take adv of that , so learn to play tricks..and get things done ur way...thats what i learnt 2day. i was almost abt to cry but isaac cooled me down!
Its pranav's b'day, he treated us at sirvi bandhu; pranju dropped me at the bus stand and there i bumped into sumit! yeh! he doesnt solcialise at all so hes always alone on his self-schedule i.e. u'll find him in college or bus stnad at any time! his logo is finalised for the fest and mandar sir also asked us to continue with the newsletter design.., they plan to release it at the annual exhibition. I also need to start working on my porfolio now, we'll have awards for best 20 portfolios in college...n i definitely dont wana leave any stone unturned!

sumit's sms @ 10pm

Sumit- I've been wating 4 dis time since 22 hrs, 4 I can tel u smthin dat u'd be 'eager to listen'...
Sm rainmakrs keep walking without realising that they are giving a new life 2 all those lifeless buds, delighting souls, changinglives..adding colour, blosm and most inp- hope. with such faith in themselves which spreads person 2 person giving their lives a new meaning..
I am one of those lucky ppl and i wish my rainmakr lives long life, 4 she deserves a share from our lives.. Happy b'day sweetie :)
n sorry
Suju- Dont be! n thnx!
Sumit- I am.. Gnsd.