m in a fix

theres something i seriously want to get rid off. but its like m quite deep in the shit. but still i shud be out of it. i want to. yes, i was taken away by the thought of it and began working on it. but i realized m not made for this. kinda like, i can do it but i want to do things other than that which i feel are more important. so m gonna take a deep breath and tell the concerned person that i want to be out of it no matter what, coz at this time in my life i really dont have to take it on me. a very essential part of you, is to be able to say a NO. that actually gives u a satisfaction of being stood by yourself irrespective of people trying to impose things on you in how so ever nice ways. m gonna be true to myself and tell them that. if i just go on with it, i will lose myself. i definitely dont want that 'me-ness' to go :) i've had it once, no more!