its been 2 years now, m living away from aai and sidd...n its an absolute bliss! everything is perfect- i dont have to listen to their loud fights whole day, or be a good girl n go to bed at 10 or eat on time, nor answer all the possible questions mum asks when i leave the house, or go around with family when i have piles of pending work...god, mum doesnt realise how dominating she is at times! i feel so trapped if m in bombay for a day or two or even when shes here in pune!
i cant continue staying with gadgils with my own family being around. actually mum wudnt give me a choice..so i rather not live with that hope! 15 days to go... we saw 4 places 2day, and finalised one right away..its airy, close to gadgils, and mum loved it.
The more she talks about how we wud decorate our new home..and how we wud have family time, the heavier i feel inside. mum, m in college whole day, i work at home almost all nite..what about my exhistance! i mean the time i have 2day, to concentrate on my work, and the flexibility to work at any time wud be screwed!
anyways, time is the one factor i trust..hope we get along well..coz we all have changed in the past 2 years! sidd is a teenager now, mum is more into sidd than me, which i love! dad is more at peace with his work but not really about sidd. and i m used to managing myself and work n taking decisions for myself- like spending or saving money, deciding whats favourable for work matters etc. since no one in my family is in art feild, i have to do things by myself.
This b'day i decided, i wanted to be financially independent when m 21, enough to tell dad that i want to separate, like, not go way, but not live together in the family. ofcourse i care for them, but catching up once in a week is good enough.
so m freelancing too now! i dont wana be a girl in the crowd, who wud take some degree, then a stable job and finally get married to a similar 'rat race victim' and screw my life!
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